Drifting slowly across a bed of thorns,
Waiting always for the breaking storm.
Here it is coming up with speed,
The wind is growing, its movement a need.
And I am in awe.
The rain it dribbles, bouncing in rivulets,
The coolness of the droplets soaking in no diluent.
Dropping harder now brick-like in weight,
The drops change to daggers nothing to sate.
And I am in pain.
Bringing black clouds bounding in layers,
The storm drives right through forcing out prayers.
Un-heeding of target it crashes around,
The wind, the rain one blasting of sound.
And I am in fear.
Without a farewell, a goodbye or adieu,
The rain dissipates leaving the world anew.
Shift in the clouds and above a fresh sign,
The delicious radiation of sweet sunshine.
And I am in bliss.
She brandishes her fear in a concave of doubt,
Lashing in every direction.
A hyena cornered,
Up against a wall.
Hysteria filtering to the surface,
Undiluted abdication of her realized evolution.
Swirling gray as she comprehends,
The force of gravity that confronts her.
Driving an end to a fantasy of,
What’s to come.
Finality in her breath,
Her world closes in.
Ever so gently,
I will lay you down.
Down deep in the cold hard ground.
I will cry droplets of love for eternity,
After they separate you from me.
I will kiss your eye lids,
I will brush my fingers across your cheeks.
A flower will be laid at your stone,
From this moment until there are no more.
And though I turn away,
As the dirt is laid.
I will never forget,
What transpired here today.
Isn’t a choice.
But I will give your silent heart,
~In Memory of my dearest Elizabeth~
In the shadow of a moment,
A broken vibration of time.
I saw a glimpse of your depths,
The essence of your core.
And as I sat in that fleeting instant,
That blink of an eye.
I knew that forever,
Was irrevocably mine.
Echos needling in my ears,
Moments missed and stumbling fears.
I seem to have misplaced my sense,
Got lost in dreams of dwindling pretense.
This constant noise that’s seeping in,
Has me going nuts again.
I can’t ignore the judgments made,
The constant berating of plans mislaid.
Re-evaluating my need to be right,
Looking around the end is in sight.
I won’t cave to this chaos that creeps to displace,
The years that I have spent trying to embrace.
Existential realities of my own making,
I refuse to give up, they remain mine upon waking.
Glancing into grey mist that is the unknown,
I met someone today.
He whispered secrets that no one knows,
He whispered them my way.
I found myself enraptured,
In his confidence displayed.
A wealth of untold knowledge,
In my reach left me dismayed.
Given choice my reason left me,
All inhibitions dissolved forthwith.
Curiosity consumed me,
He offered me his gift.
Greedy and naive,
I grasped what he had shown.
And now I have become the mist,
They call me the unknown.
I stand before you, a woman,
I carried you within my innermost being,
For so long.
I was patient,
I was impatient.
I knew you before you knew you.
I still know you.
I am the part of you that will never go.
I will give you everything.
The wisdom of a lifetime.
And you will reject it.
For you are a child,
I will be nothing to you.
Until you too,
Become a mother.
And then you will see,
You will understand,
And it will complete you.