She brandishes her fear in a concave of doubt,
Lashing in every direction.
A hyena cornered,
Up against a wall.
Hysteria filtering to the surface,
Undiluted abdication of her realized evolution.
Swirling gray as she comprehends,
The force of gravity that confronts her.
Driving an end to a fantasy of,
What’s to come.
Finality in her breath,
Her world closes in.
Ever so gently,
I will lay you down.
Down deep in the cold hard ground.
I will cry droplets of love for eternity,
After they separate you from me.
I will kiss your eye lids,
I will brush my fingers across your cheeks.
A flower will be laid at your stone,
From this moment until there are no more.
And though I turn away,
As the dirt is laid.
I will never forget,
What transpired here today.
Isn’t a choice.
But I will give your silent heart,
~In Memory of my dearest Elizabeth~
In the shadow of a moment,
A broken vibration of time.
I saw a glimpse of your depths,
The essence of your core.
And as I sat in that fleeting instant,
That blink of an eye.
I knew that forever,
Was irrevocably mine.
Glancing into grey mist that is the unknown,
I met someone today.
He whispered secrets that no one knows,
He whispered them my way.
I found myself enraptured,
In his confidence displayed.
A wealth of untold knowledge,
In my reach left me dismayed.
Given choice my reason left me,
All inhibitions dissolved forthwith.
Curiosity consumed me,
He offered me his gift.
Greedy and naive,
I grasped what he had shown.
And now I have become the mist,
They call me the unknown.
I stand before you, a woman,
I carried you within my innermost being,
For so long.
I was patient,
I was impatient.
I knew you before you knew you.
I still know you.
I am the part of you that will never go.
I will give you everything.
The wisdom of a lifetime.
And you will reject it.
For you are a child,
I will be nothing to you.
Until you too,
Become a mother.
And then you will see,
You will understand,
And it will complete you.
Although you may not know it, you live deep inside my heart.
That bleakest smallest crevice, is where we will never part.
I’ve pushed you deeper and deeper, hoping you will go away.
But all the baggage I’ve piled on, has guaranteed you’ll stay.
The time we spent so connected, I cannot just erase.
Those moments leading up to, when you said you need your space.
I gave you all that you wanted, no questions asked no waiting.
Now its been years and its crystal clear, that your memory is not fading.
The night comes on and here I am drawing on the past.
Holding near the things I find so dear, most of which would never last.
Don’t take from this that I am pining, for you I do not want.
Just a fond reminder that my heart still holds a small deep-seeded thought.
You betray me, you palpitating scourge,
Daring me to let out what most desperately needs to stay in.
You shock me with your vengeance,
Oozing that thick red sustenance you call life.
Letting me drip, drip, drip,
Through my fingertips.
Onto the hard, glossy tiles.
They don’t want your gift of doom,
Your coagulating bitterness.
I can feel your delight in skipping a beat,
That desire you have to slow,
Forcing me to an untoward finish,
A finish I don’t want.
I won’t give in,